These Drugs

[Intro]
B
 
[Verse 1]
B
I don't wanna do drugs anymore
B
If you saw me through the eyes of a bathroom stall
     G#m
Your skin would crawl, I'm high
G#m
But I am not a sycophant for a good time
B
I only wanted to escape my mind
B
For one night, know what happiness feels like
E
But the nightmare I'm ignoring is darker in the morning
 
 
[Verse 2]
        B
It's a band-aid on a broken arm
                           G#m
It's a siren sounding out alarm
G#m
A messed up version of self-harm
    B
And it's louder than a cry for help
B
When I destroy my mental health
E
Because I don't respect myself
 
 
[Chorus]
B                                        G#m
Every time I take these drugs to pick me up
           E
All I ever do is cry
B                                        G#m
Every time I take these drugs to pick me up
           E
All I ever do is cry
 
 
[Verse 3]
B
I don't wanna go to bed alone
B
So I let another stranger take me home
   G#m
I drink to numb the pain
G#m
And you would do it too if you would share my brain
B
Everybody that I love gets hurt
B
And I'm learning to believe that I just deserve
     E
The demons I'm ignoring and the regret in the morning
 
 
[Verse 4]
B
It's a total domino effect
                         G#m
A prison cell inside my head
G#m
A trauma that I can't forget
     B
And it's louder than a cry for help
                          E
When I destroy my mental health
E                      N.C.
Because I fucking hate myself
 
 
[Chorus]
B                                       G#m
Every time I take these drugs to pick me up
           E
All I ever do is cry
B                                        G#m
Every time I take these drugs to pick me up
           E
All I ever do is
 B           E
Cry, cry, I only ever
G#m         E
Cry, cry I only ever
B           E
Cry, cry I only ever
G#m         E
Cry, cry I only ever
 
[Bridge]
E                              F#m
Damned if I do and bored if I don't
                                   G#m
And I should get clean again but I won't
                              B
I told you that I don't need help
                       E
Because I lie to my...self
                                   F#m
I'm damned if I do and bored if I don't
                                   G#m
And I should get clean again but I won't
                    B
I wanna be someone else
                            E
Because I'm scared of my...self
F#m                      G#m   F#m
Sometimes I'm scared of myself
 
 
[Chorus]
 B                                       G#m
Every time I take these drugs to pick me up
           N.C.
All I ever do is cry
 B                                       G#m
Every time I take these drugs to pick me up
           E
All I ever do is
B           E
Cry, cry I only ever
G#m         E
Cry, cry I only ever
B           E
Cry, cry I only ever
G#m         E         B
Cry, cry I only ever cry