I Don't Feel Alive

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[Verse 1]
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 Skin and bones,    stomach aches
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 Lucid dreams, hold my breath when I'm wide awake
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 Connecticut,     dissociate
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 Maybe I should buy a house in a town upstate
 
 
[Pre-Chorus]
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If I could, I'd wake myself up when I am somebody that I'm proud of
 
 
[Chorus 1]
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 I'm getting undressed for my lover
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And praying she don't hate all my skin like I do
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 I'm reading books and drinking coffee
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Stepping on a scale I keep in the bathroom
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The water goes downhill, and still
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I swim against the current with two arms that cannot fly
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And I don't feel alive
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No, I don't feel alive
 
 
[Verse 2]
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 Telehealth, TV episodes
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 Swallow seeds, but the fruit never seems to grow
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 Validatе,   what I know
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 What I believe in and еverywhere I wanna go
 
 
[Pre-Chorus]
F#m              B               E    B/D#    C#m   B     A
If I could, I'd wake myself up when I am somebody that I'm proud of
 
 
[Chorus 2]
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 I’m paying three different psychologists
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Trying to remember who I told what story to
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 I’m writing feelings in a journal
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Cuz' that’s what people who have their shit together seem to do
                    E              B/D#
The water goes downhill, and still
    C#m                             A
I swim against the current with two arms that cannot fly
                   E     B/D#   C#m
And I don't feel alive
                   A
No, I don't feel alive
 
 
[Post-Chorus]
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I keep coming  up for air and ending up with water in my
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I keep coming  up for air and ending up with water in my lungs
 
 
[Chorus 3]
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 I’m learning how to set my boundaries
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How to have compassion for myself and for my mind
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 I’m turning off my fucking cell phone
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And trying to have honest conversations in real life
                    E              B/D#
The water goes downhill, and still
    C#m                             A
I swim against the current with two arms that cannot fly
                   E     B/D#   C#m
And I don't feel alive
                   A
No, I don't feel alive
 
 
[Post Chorus]
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I keep coming  up for air and ending up with water in my
E        B/D#  C#m            A
I keep coming  up for air and ending up with water in my
E        B/D#  C#m            A
I keep coming  up for air and ending up with water in my
E        B/D#  C#m            A
I keep coming  up for air and ending up with water in my lungs